The stress and anxiety are eating me alive from the inside. If you have never experienced this, let me tell you here and now, it is the absolute worst feeling in the world. People who do not experience this, I have discovered, have absolutely no idea how debilitating it is. Part of me wants to just quit everything and start over. But with the reality of bills and responsibilities, how do you do this? Do you just quit and hope for the best? Do you quit and work your tail off to find a new job before the bills pile up? Do you sell the brand new car your just purchased and rely on your own two feet to get to places?
Something needs to change. I cannot stand my life right now. And I do not see the light at the end of the tunnel. Which is really scary by the way. This is when you just stand up straighter and keep on going because there really is not other alternative. For me, this is when I keep repeating what is the worst that can happen? I am a strong woman who can do anything I put my mind to. So I am putting my mind to staying strong and keep on trudging along. It’s time I actually figure out what I want to do with my life because if I keep going on the path I am currently on, I will die on the inside. It’s already happening. I can feel me slowly just not caring about anything.
So it is time to do something drastic.
And hope for the best.